My boy is gone?

I looked after a 5 yo boy with severe trauma, he coded and we couldnt get him back.

Telling his mother was the one of the most difficult things I had to do, after she broke down and started heaving and hyperventilating, she looked me dead in the eye and said hold me while I view him...

and I did

She went in to see him, talk to him, whilst leaning on me

I held it together till she finished and left then I let go

I lost it completely

I fell to the ground and sobbed for 5 minutes straight

I washed my face and got back to my shift

I'll never forget you mama, I still think about you sometimes

I hope life is gentle on you